This image, by Irene Koronas, accompanies my poem Swiss Army Knife in the web-journal X-Peri, which went up last night. The multi-media angle X-Peri are exploring is an interesting one, and I recommend those watching to explore the whole journal; the clash/clang of words and images is unique.
Sunday, November 26, 2017
Tuesday, November 21, 2017
fieralingue.it: Pigs and Planes
This 2006 page, from Anny Ballardini's fieralingue (specifically, from the Poets' Corner section of the journal), features the poem later known as Pigs and Planes, which I also read at the MLA Off-Site reading in Philly that December.
Monday, November 20, 2017
Interview with Anny Ballardini: University of New Orleans: Lavender Ink
Tuesday, November 7, 2017
Something Solid: The Nineties: Home
The hook was baited, for the fish to understand
something hidden. However much Manhattan
basked in the media spotlight, as the home of all
cultural East Coast action, the portal-ways, planar
spaces, advanced compositions, heady coloration
schemes, which tumbled from her teeming head,
could have no home there. Manhattan, media
spotlight or not, had no recourse but to be dumb.
Inauguration beneath the surface to just that, the part
of life against stage-lights, but Abby simply had no
choice. She was the threat to an established cultural
order. No Byronic hang-ups, just a pair of the most
crystalline eyes ever bequeathed to a human being,
forced to leave what had been her home. Broadway,
where she had served, proved to be no help. Musical
theater was third-world lechery, as was Manhattan itself,
so that the fish forced herself to flow into a new, foreign
city: all buildings, no Broadway. The girls who were her
girls were everywhere. She hoped. And lucked out, because
crafting hands molded the situation into a form sculptured
to please a ferocious appetite for queer life. No queerness
lacking in Philadelphia. Just the sense of a new kind of
flow, sense of order, hierarchy: permissions to be granted,
privileges to be earned. Always the thought that Manhattan
could be retreated into. Abby found that when she bit
down on Philadelphia, the planar spaces expanded
themselves into something epic, unprecedented, as did
a sense that compositions announced solvency. Home.
© Adam Fieled 2025
something hidden. However much Manhattan
basked in the media spotlight, as the home of all
cultural East Coast action, the portal-ways, planar
spaces, advanced compositions, heady coloration
schemes, which tumbled from her teeming head,
could have no home there. Manhattan, media
spotlight or not, had no recourse but to be dumb.
Inauguration beneath the surface to just that, the part
of life against stage-lights, but Abby simply had no
choice. She was the threat to an established cultural
order. No Byronic hang-ups, just a pair of the most
crystalline eyes ever bequeathed to a human being,
forced to leave what had been her home. Broadway,
where she had served, proved to be no help. Musical
theater was third-world lechery, as was Manhattan itself,
so that the fish forced herself to flow into a new, foreign
city: all buildings, no Broadway. The girls who were her
girls were everywhere. She hoped. And lucked out, because
crafting hands molded the situation into a form sculptured
to please a ferocious appetite for queer life. No queerness
lacking in Philadelphia. Just the sense of a new kind of
flow, sense of order, hierarchy: permissions to be granted,
privileges to be earned. Always the thought that Manhattan
could be retreated into. Abby found that when she bit
down on Philadelphia, the planar spaces expanded
themselves into something epic, unprecedented, as did
a sense that compositions announced solvency. Home.
© Adam Fieled 2025
Monday, November 6, 2017
Another tool for the shed...
Another tool for the proverbial shed is this site, which offers solidly backed-up pages, easy access, and a promise of staunch support over a long period of time. This is crucial to satisfy the architectural impulse... happy holidays.
Monday, October 30, 2017
from Something Solid: The Nineties: Black Box
When theater-ace Terry trooped down that staircase
into the bowels of the Theater Building,
on the fringes of North Halls, I noticed
he (it seemed) felt nothing. For me, it was like
a plunge into empty nothingness, some
infernal realm of inversions; several
times I almost fainted. The Black Box
theater space was always mobbed on
those Thursday nights, not far from
midnight, where Terry reigned as secret
Outlaw Playwrights king— officious, daring,
beneficent or malign, as the mood took him;
& as Justine Caskey traipsed past me in the line,
vulpine teeth glistening in the fluorescence—
Justine, who we referred to as "Caesar Girl"
around North Halls, for making Caesar Salads
for herself daffily in the dining commons.
I spent an uncomfortable few months obsessed
with Ms. Caskey, whose eyes stretched
lugubriously across a pinched, cadaverous
face. Was she a witch? Did she worship Satan?
Did she know who I was? Yet here, Terry
didn't think she could act, & that was all that
mattered. As I did my apprenticeship, Terry
decided I couldn't act but write. I began to
spew out one-acts, working my way assiduously
up the ladder to him. A dispensation of God-
like power— to see my work staged— was at hand.
Friday, October 13, 2017
from Something Solid: The Nineties: To Happy Valley
The State College townie kids, bound
to Happy Valley, got their kicks where
they found them, gave off an air of
ennui shot with doom (human life
having granted them no escape valve),
yet were accommodating to me. On
what it means to look around a small
town, and know that it is everything to you,
encompasses all you are, Lords over you
confining curses: to trip with these kids was
to understand these limitations, the magic
& the agony. Lisa smirked, skinny in her boots,
hair cut short but for the one fringe over
her left eye, & passed me water for the E high—
Lisa— after twenty years, the bathroom,
you remember, in The Coffee Cellar,
was all black, with a wide mirror.
Stoned, I dragged you (sweet sixteen) in there
to see if I could kiss you, wrapped in
black leather pants; you banged in
two-inch-high boots, tawny hair-fringe
there, over your eye. I got the kiss; we ambled
out hand in hand; wound up back in
again. You made me vow to you
something I can't remember. How
townie girls talked— I'd nod, get lost.
But the womb-space was complete—
we were safe, ascendant into space, hopeless—
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