Coca-Cola Dream debuted at the Personal Mythologies II reading at KWH in 2003
Thursday, July 9, 2026
Midnight Ramble
Tuesday, July 7, 2026
Sunday, July 5, 2026
Kelly Writers House: Consolidation
Readers included Brian Freedman and Adam Fieled.
Standout pieces include:
Coca-Cola Dream
Proust and Love
Hamlet and the Last Drop
Alexandra Grilikhes and Pound
This mp3 offers the entire This Charming Lab reading, held at Kelly Writers House in 2004 (3-27).
Featured readers included Brian Freedman and Adam Fieled.
Standout tracks include:
Ode On Jazz (2)
Dominique
Stoning the Devil
Saturday, July 4, 2026
Get Yer Ya-Yas Out
Intro: This Charming Lab is a chestnut from a 2004 reading at Kelly Writers House.
Thursday, July 2, 2026
Nineties New York (Dominique)
Experiencing Nineties New York, my blonde-time, through the rigors of Dominique.
Monday, June 29, 2026
Tuesday, June 23, 2026
Monday, June 22, 2026
Acid Dropping EP
A Clangorous Din re-pub
Sunday, June 21, 2026
Wordsworth @ McDonald's (2005)
Wordsworth (real language/ rmen): gender-specific, un-PC (language/men) static/abstract definitely serious-intentioned
I go back where I came from to 6th Avenue
and the tobacconist in the Ziegfeld Theatre and
casually ask for a carton of Gauloises and a carton
of Picayunes, and a NEW YORK POST with
her face on it.
Leroi comes in
and tells me Miles Davis was clubbed 12
times last night outside BIRDLAND by a cop
a lady asks us for a nickel for a terrible
disease but we don’t give her one we
don’t like terrible diseases.
Monday, June 15, 2026
Wednesday, June 10, 2026
Disappear
Disappear, as published in Philadelphia in Hinge Online in 2001.
Disappear, as featured in Live in Brooklyn on PennSound.
photo portrait of Adam Fieled by Kelly McCabe, State College, Pennsylvania, 1994
Pigs and Planes
Pigs and Planes, alongside Ode On Jazz, in Steve Halle's Seven Corners Poetry.
Pigs and Planes, as part of Live in Brooklyn, on PennSound.
Thursday, June 4, 2026
Beams preface ('13-'26)
It was in character for me in 2005 to believe I could create a valuable poetic form out of thin air. In truth, the eponymous section of Beams I wrote at that time is not a substantial formal breakthrough that much; what I call the “Beam” form isn’t that unique or striking. The poems have more strength in their thematic gist than in their formal inventiveness— lots of twisted, warped sexuality, precursor to the When You Bit… sonnets and the Madame Psychosis poems, written a year later. It wasn’t a stretch for me to be warped about sexuality in mid-Aughts Philadelphia, or New York, where Mike Land’s sister Anna lived in the East Village. The Madame Psychosis poems of ’06 were formally and thematically more self-conscious; partly because I was trying to be painterly (in the manner of de Kooning and his Women), partly because the formal imperative was to compress (in the manner of Keats), partly because I’d been perverted and slightly deranged by a period of promiscuity, and knew it. Many of the best Madame Psychosis poems were written in New England; debbie jaffe was written in Rittenhouse Square, Philadelphia. Becky Grace constitutes significant early recognition of Rebecca Hilliker. I lifted the title of the series from Foster Wallace’s Infinite Jest, which I read at that time, and which was animated by a similar twistedness. Nick Gruberg, who bled literary twistedness, encouraged me in this respect.
One of my odd discoveries then was that a huge puritanical streak ran through avant-garde poetry in America. One female editor, in particular, castigated my pervishness in a memorable way, by laying down a gauntlet—if she was going to publish me, it had to be something more abstract or impressionistic, and not so sexualized. I wrote the original Apparition Poems (which later mutated in a more expansive direction) for her—some of them wound up coming out, also, in Jacket #31, and in a Lake Forest College Press anthology. As Beams was being written, my life tightened and became more focused— I finished my M.F.A., started as a University Fellow at Temple, and the Free School ceased to function as a cohesive entity. The Virtual Pinball poems, co-written with Swedish poet Lars Palm, were a kind of last hurrah for the profligate Free School period—written in an arbitrary, haphazard manner, often from whatever I happened to be listening to on the radio. By October ’06, I had compiled the Beams manuscript of the four series and sent it to Blazevox. It came out as a Blazevox e-book a year later, and was not ignored.
Beams is as close as I’ve come to publishing something representatively post-modern— a book which prizes quirk, anomaly, and disjuncture over depth and intellect. If I had to move past it instantly, it is because I found the strictures of post-modern verse too limiting. There’s too much human reality which can’t be expressed with quirk and anomaly; and too much ephemerality in the post-modern approach for a disciple of both British Romanticism and Deconstructionism to accept or embrace (even if UK poet/editor Jeffrey Side connected Beams with Blake in his ’08 GR review of the book). If Beams has a claim to some enduring importance, it is because I dared to tackle a serious theme (human sexuality) in a few novel, head-splitting ways (multiple, multiplying significations), and without unduly obfuscating what the theme was.
Adam Fieled, 2013-2026
Tuesday, June 2, 2026
Clean: 1998-2026
Clean from Siren's Silence to Mipoesias to PennSound: twenty-eight years.
Live In Brooklyn
Many thanks to the PennSound crew for uploading Live in Brooklyn:
The night of that reading, as is seen here, Mary Evelyn Harju and Mary Walker Graham were both in attendance.
Monday, June 1, 2026
Becky Hilliker and Yeats (from Ephemera: Beginning the Work)
and the boat rides the back of swells,
bucking wetly.
My legs absorb the push and pull,
thinking only of the fish,
sleek and dripping on the line,
neon green parachute ballooning
from its mouth.
I arch my back
and the rod dives.
The fish lifts, slimy as an egg,
spinning like a ballerina
on a silver thread,
its marble eye mute,
fixed on white.
How many times
did you find this world,
blinded, terrified?
There are hands on you
and pliers in your mouth,
metallic, blood-washed.
How many times have you waited
for the water
while everything lurches around you,
brilliant white, like the inside
of a hospital, like the underbelly
of a dream, gasping
to break the surface
toward that cold & sudden light?
Thursday, May 28, 2026
Wednesday, May 27, 2026
Feel (I saw) remix re-pub
Sunday, May 24, 2026
Live Forever in Lothlorien
Live Forever, double sonnet from Something Solid, in Lothlorien Poetry Journal.
Live Forever is also available in mp3 form on PennSound.
Saturday, May 23, 2026
The City For Real
Thursday, May 21, 2026
Something Solid: Apologia 2022-2026
Monday, May 18, 2026
Sunday, May 17, 2026
Henniker Heat
Friday, May 15, 2026
Picture to a name...
The wind turns the water into an animal
& the boat rides the back of swells,
bucking wetly.
My legs absorb the push & pull,
thinking only of the fish,
sleek & dripping on the line,
neon green parachute ballooning
from its mouth.
I arch my back
& the rod dives.
The fish lifts, slimy as an egg,
spinning like a ballerina
on a silver thread,
its marble eye mute,
fixed on white.
How many times have you watched this world,
blinded, terrified?
There are hands on you
& pliers in your mouth,
metallic, blood-washed.
How many times have you waited
for the water
while everything lurches around you,
brilliant white, like the inside
of a hospital, like the underbelly
of a dream, gasping
to break the surface
toward that cold & sudden light?
© Becky Hilliker 2005
Thursday, May 14, 2026
Sunday, May 10, 2026
The Disfiguring Gaze
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Monday, April 27, 2026
Saturday, April 25, 2026
On being painted as David III
Friday, April 24, 2026
On being painted as David II
Thursday, April 16, 2026
Wednesday, April 8, 2026
Philly Free School: catalog page
Otoliths 16
Venturi, Scott, and Brown Assoc.
Golden Notebook (Hannah Miller)
PAFA (Pennsylvania Academy of Fine Arts)
Highwire Gallery (Calendar 2004/2005)
Kate the Great's Book Emporium
Bowery Poetry Club (August 13)
Cavalcade of Poets & Independent Artists (e-mail group)
Venturi, Scott, and Brown Assoc. (2)
Late Late Capital Bootleg Sessions
Golden Notebook (Hannah Miller)(2)
Late Late Capital Bootleg Sessions (2)
Rhode Island Notebook (Gabriel Gudding)
Venturi, Scott, and Brown Assoc. (3)
SoundCloud (The Esthetic Apostle)
The & Now Awards: The Best Innovative Writing
Third/Sister Lovers: The Fieled Sequence (Bandcamp)
Sara Smile (SoundCloud)
Chicago School of Poetics (CSOP)
Cordite Poetry Review, Plunder and Salvage
Sex and Shadows (Graham, Blair, Hilliker)

































