Wednesday, July 2, 2025
Tuesday, July 1, 2025
Monday, June 30, 2025
Beams: Beams: Infinite Regress
Modigiliani-marvelous
you collapsed perspectives
"vessel" in torso-line, reflected
back, over your shoulder
you leapt from the frame
colors in you remained canvas
foregrounded dimensions
Saturday, June 28, 2025
Twisted Limbs: 2025
light. Lovely ways you defy me. Best moments,
always, you on top, when the world ends a little
bit. Warmth between lovers can never be
unnatural. Nor can hostage-taking, or a healthy
regard for oblivion. It's all that's left in common
between us & them: twisted limbs. Our mouths
move like theirs: flips, bites. Our movements
prefigure the same ends: consummated peace,
mediated silence, "deliberate hebetude." We're
w/ them as a necessary antithesis. They can't
see us. They never could. It's left to us to make
a balance, if we can. We'll need nothing less than luck.
© Adam Fieled 2006-2025
Friday, June 27, 2025
Thursday, June 26, 2025
Monday, June 23, 2025
Beams: Beams: Ex
mimesis of no-détente
(m)oral play of difference
I follow breath to be
as a blue painted vase
El Greco-sepia room
crossed corrugated lips
regrets of rinsed locusts
you “just knew” this
would happen, as you
“just knew” it’d happen
when you painted me
Tuesday, June 17, 2025
Sunday, June 15, 2025
Monday, May 26, 2025
Sunday, May 25, 2025
Monday, May 12, 2025
Rosie and Jeremy
Sunday, April 27, 2025
Saturday, April 26, 2025
Wednesday, April 23, 2025
Wednesday, April 9, 2025
From P.F.S. Post (2005-2023)
The wind turns the water into an animal
& the boat rides the back of swells,
bucking wetly.
My legs absorb the push & pull,
thinking only of the fish,
sleek & dripping on the line,
neon green parachute ballooning
from its mouth.
I arch my back
& the rod dives.
The fish lifts, slimy as an egg,
spinning like a ballerina
on a silver thread,
its marble eye mute,
fixed on white.
How many times have you watched this world,
blinded, terrified?
There are hands on you
& pliers in your mouth,
metallic, blood-washed.
How many times have you waited
for the water
while everything lurches around you,
brilliant white, like the inside
of a hospital, like the underbelly
of a dream, gasping
to break the surface
toward that cold & sudden light?
© Becky Hilliker 2005
Saturday, April 5, 2025
From Poetry (2005)
PARTS OF A STORY
Or, it could go like this, sinceyou want to know names,
places, people, particulars:
it was the particular paradise
of ninety acres of orchard grass
and a few scattered woods;
barbed wire, Holsteins,
and the plush of spring
as you feel it, wet beneath you,
when you sit down in a field in May—
or in the pasture’s folds where the creek ran:
there were ores of a grey clay
she could sit and mine all morning;
rotting trees, whose meat flaked off
like the flesh of fish;
or in the barn where the straw-dust
harried and swirled.
It was in an inheritance,
since it was given as all earth is given,
as ready to receive the pledge
of a young girl as the cow-flops
and the dull thud of horses’ hooves.
We may start here in this field,
with her kneeling, with the colors wet and black
suddenly pouring up—
but eventually we will have to confront the father,
then the ravishment by air,
then, still later—
the ravishment by imagination.
© Mary Walker Graham 2005
Thursday, April 3, 2025
Livid: The Kanzler Saga: Apparition Poem #1181
Just as you couldn’t paint but to vandalize, I had
the instinct to vandalize you, my love. To rough
you up. Because for you there could be no love,
I would assist you in understanding repercussions
could follow from games you thought were fun.
How your green eyes had a problem— you stared
at things too long. That wide-eyed stare, made it
so that (for example) no one could take you seriously
as swish at a first night. Or on First Fridays, as you
tried to swish towards a homing sense you were going
where you wanted to, your simian male friend at your
side. As I said, I wanted to rough you up. You could
never paint to be crisp, only smudged, so that Abby laughed
at how hard you worked to convey retardation (and succeeded).
I could never decide if, behind the wide-eyed stare,
what was there had any genuine innocence. It seemed
to me, to be honest, there was none. Your sense
of complete calculatedness in every respect is why,
how I now kneel before you, my round browns mingling
with your round greens, brown & green smudging each
other to determine advantages, now that the first nights,
First Fridays are all part of a distant past, the time’s come
to choose whether to live or die. I’ve decided to salvage
us. That’s crisp in me. You were crisp about the bed
part of it, for a while, so that I force red into your mix—
Sunday, March 30, 2025
The Posit Trilogy
The Posit Trilogy: Wayback Machine (1)
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Saturday, March 29, 2025
Forthcoming and/or works-in-progress
Poetry:
New Apparition Poems 2013-2014
Answered Prayers and Willard Preachers
Fiction:
Also relevant:
Catalog page: Something Solid
Catalog page: Equations
Something Solid, Equations on PennSound
Saturday, March 22, 2025
Adam Fieled: E-Books: Catalog
Posit (chapbook pdf): Dusie Press: 2007
Beams: Blazevox Books: 2007-2025
Rubber Soul: Ungovernable Press: 2008
The White Album: Ungovernable Press: 2009
Apparition Poems (print book pdf): Blazevox Books: 2010-2024
Disturb the Universe: The Collected Essays of Adam Fieled (2nd edition): Argotist E-Books: 2010-2024
Mother Earth (2nd edition): Argotist E-Books: 2011-2024
Cheltenham (print book pdf): Blazevox Books: 2012-2024
The Posit Trilogy (including Posit, 2nd ed.) (2nd edition): Argotist E-Books: 2017-2024
The White Album (2nd edition): Eratio Editions: 2018
The Great Recession (2nd edition): Argotist E-Books: 2019-2024
Also relevant:
Jeffrey Side: Collected Poetry Reviews (2nd edition): 2013-2024
Various: Critical Writing on Adam Fieled: 2014
Books on mp3:
Equations (1), Equations (2): PennSound: 2023
Monday, March 17, 2025
Sunday, March 16, 2025
Thursday, March 6, 2025
Wednesday, February 26, 2025
Tuesday, February 18, 2025
Sunday, February 16, 2025
Tuesday, January 21, 2025
Deep Wood's Woven Shade: Apparition Poem #1347
Because women who paint have two bodies,
the fragile blood/flesh vessel common, normed,
to all, & an aggregate of coalesced colors & forms,
extending residue useful to raise brains past models,
the winter day arose I plumbed the depths (for a random
reason) of my files, found a miracle, ten paintings,
all master class, by her, without understanding how
I’d mislaid them a decade before. But there, in that now,
I found her body again, the first stroked into
the second, & it was a revelation past anything but
the most violently revelatory intercourse possible
between two human beings. Honestly, not hostile
but real, our more literal expression had wobbled
on skittish rails towards the noncommittal or gossamer.
But as she left it for real, her physical body, in coalesced
colors & forms, the retrieval was all intercourse elevated
into matrimony usually thought too good for the human
race. It is, actually. Especially given the work’s twists
& turns towards revealing again all this dullness
we live in. Four bodies must suffice, to turn dullness to fullness.