The crowd is called in, to witness the kill;
drunk & disheveled, bitter and chilled;
he follows them in by an effort of will.
The tiles are cleaned, to be spattered with blood;
trickles or gushes, geysers or floods;
a yellow-ish light drowns the faces, like mud—
he likes who he is, in this outlaw brigade;
not a charmed prince in the price that he's paid;
he'll have to remainder this bargain he's made—
so stands at the edge, & yells with the crowd;
overly hostile, overly loud;
the victim lies prostrate beneath a white shroud.
It soon gets uncovered, revealing a man
he thought was another, not from his clan;
but seeing his likeness is more than he'll stand.
And yet he still lingers, as needles are drawn;
screaming and preening, a circuit turned on;
he wishes he lay there himself, nearly gone—
yellow the light, and more yellow his soul;
stripped of pretensions, stripped of controls;
he runs for the exit like rats for a hole.
The man was my father, the shrouded quite near.
Hounded by anguish, hounded by fear,
what lingered or perished was never made clear—